why do i lie? lyrics

I would love to be better, I would love to be free
I would love to be perfect when you look at me
But instead I'm still crying, yes, instead I'm still lying
Sad to say "I'm still trying not to be me"

When I see all the weakness that I turned into sickness
I still think I can slide just fine on the ice
It's not easy to be honest sometimes I'm just astonished
How hard it can be to be true

Why do I lie, Is it just to get by?
If I give up my lines, will I die?
If fortunes are favored then I am in labor
And I'm trying so hard to leave lying behind

I don't want to be hazy, I don't think that I'm crazy
But I've had some moments where I am not sure
And if you can forgive me for just being human
Then I will try harder to keep my words pure

I could be on the border, it could be a disorder
Honestly, I think that I can come clean
And all of my stories might even be boring
If I can tell you what they all mean

Why do I lie, is it just to get by?
If I give up my lines, will I die?
If fortunes are favored then I am in labor
And I'm trying so hard to leave lying behind