where was i to know lyrics

How many times have I said to myself
This means nothing to me
What doesn't kill only makes me stronger
So comforting to believe

But in these strange days I find
That I'm a ghost in my own life
Can you forgive these blood-stained hands
And trust the scars have healed out of sight

Where was I to know
You were running out of reasons
Afraid to just let go
We were crashing into pieces
But where was I, where was I to know

And I'm so tired of feeling sick and tired
Shattered to my very soul
A dying light in a coal black sky
I'm too young to feel so old

With hungry voices, we stand in a circle
Chalked upon the floor
We're waiting for grace is it all in vain
Or do we count the ways once more

Where was I to know
You were running out of reasons
Afraid to just let go
We were crashing into pieces
But where was I to know

I'm humbled by your patience
In time the spirit grows
Will bring me to your garden
But where was I, where was I to know