useless lyrics

So I can fall asleep
But it's all I've come to know

Push me and you
shoved like you always do
But nothing's ever the same
But how can I explain
the damage you have done
When all that's left is pain

So I tried to stay awake
And so I would try to stay awake
And so I learned...

Waiting in my room
I'm lying on the bed
'cause outside is just too cold
I turn the radio loud
So I could fall asleep
But it's all I've come to know
So I tried it all for you

I fucking tried your way
And I don't like what I see
'cause I've been put to the test
And faced all the rest
And useless is all I'll be
So I tried your way
And don't like what I see
And now I'm bored...

Waiting in my room
I'm lying on the floor
'cause outside I just don't know
I turn the radio loud
So I can hear me think
But it's all I've come to know

So I tried to stay awake
And so I would try to stay awake
And so I learned...

I fucking tried your way
And I don't like what I see
I've been put to the test
And faced all the rest
And useless is all I'll be
So I tried your way
And don't like what I see
And now I'm bored...

(So I burn a part of me that slowly fades to you,
but how can I plainly see what slowly fades to me)