the great disappointment lyrics

I can remember a place I used to go
Chrysanthemums of white, well, they seemed so beautiful
I can remember, searched for the amaranth
I'd shut my eyes to see

Oh, how I smiled then, so near the cherished ones
I knew they would appear, saw not a single one
Oh, I smiled then, waiting so patiently
I'd make a wish and bleed

While I waited, I was wasting away
While I waited, I was wasting away

I can remember, dreamt them so vividly
Soft creatures draped in white, light kisses gracing me
I can remember when I first realized
Dreams were the only place to see them

While I waited, I was wasting away
While I waited, I was wasting away
While I waited, I was wasting away

Hope was wasting away
Faith was wasting away
I was wasting away

I never, never wanted this
Always wanted to believe
Never never wanted this
I could not help because

Never never wanted this
From the start I'd been deceived
Never never wanted this
I could not help because

I never, never wanted this
Always wanted to believe
Never never wanted this

Never never wanted this
From the start I'd been deceived
Never never wanted this

Inside a crumbling effigy
(But you promised)
So dies all innocence
(But you promised me)

While I waited, I was wasting away
While I waited, I was wasting away
While I waited, I was wasting away

Hope was wasting away
Faith was wasting away
I was wasting away