rookie lyrics

I never thought this could be me.
I guess you never do until it's happening to you.
and all the "could have been's" rearrange.
Like all the fun turns into shame,
Redemption never seemed so cruel,
So little time so many crimes,

guilt like a chain chokes my will away.
and all my gods never seemed so weak.
Wake up, engage,
it used to be so easy.
now derailed and enraged
now sick and I'm tame
Get up I'm game,
Where is the hope they gave?
counting cost with lost.

Don't think that I can't hear you laugh.

I used to be a lot like you,
but now I'm only me.
Drink to pills to shots.

Fun turns into shock.
For every hand goes round,
A habit and a pawn.
the pain gets so damned loud.
The hammer hits and I'm down.
Trust no one, hey why should I?

Cheated, smacked up and diseased
Cry to sleep and fight to eat.
They gave me the poison dressed like life
Used to be a pro at this,
now I've broken my own wrist.
you'll forget me when I'm goneRotten teeth and life unsung,