nervous and weird lyrics

You know I want to be the way you want me to
Big hearted and tall enough to cover you
I would break in half if you said it loud
Splinter out of myself just like mercury

I think it's better now than how it used to be
You were lying in bed and I would levitate
I think it's better here, than where we used to be
I wish I could go out into the Oregon sun to be alive in the day

I would smile at everyone
I remember you back in 83 you were dressing insane
You were my everything, you were so different
From all those other girls

A blind Electra in drag so cool and casually lame
I think I'm better now than how I used to be
Always nervous and weird, scared most of the time
I think it's better now than how it used to be

Always up in the night afraid to live in the day afraid of being afraid
Now I sit alone when you're not around
I read aloud just to hear a friendly voice
I see your scary dolls, they always look at me

From the corner of my eyes I see them shake their heads
You know I want to be the way you me to
Big hearted and tall enough to cover you
I wish I could go out just to be alive in the day