if you lyrics

I wish I could understand
Could figure out
What makes me fly
And what makes me fall
It would be so simple
If I could handle
What makes me freeze
And what makes me glow

And now i
Run out of patience
Wanna throw out the window
Things that I can't hold
Just to show you
'cause I'm not interested
To know what I am
In your eyes and your mind
I'm for shure not that one

If you want to carry me
You can always do that
If you if you if you want
Watch out I'll be heavy

I wish I could understand
Could figure out
What makes me sink
What makes me rise
It would be so simple
If I could handle
What makes it pointless
What makes it whole