i wonder lyrics

All alone the broadening skies under the every night I will lie
Scratching claw and grip the rails every day my living hell
Oh God you know I tried, I know how hard I've tried
I know I tried

Hey I'd like to daze away to a place no one has known
In a state of mind I could call mine that only I could have own
Where I could hum a tune anytime I choose
And then there is no such thing as time
Where I feel no pain just calm and sane what a place for one to find

Now you see I'm watching everything I do
And they're watching everything I say
So baby we'll leave, we'll leave and breathe won't leave me be
Sometimes I'd asked myself and said, "Why am I even here?"
And I wonder how you leave me wondering, you leave me wondering

Won't you stop watching me
I said, "They're watching me, watching me, watching me"

Now in my corner I got them stealing in my eyes and
And arms holding up my knees and then rocking back and forth my life
I didn't mean to feel this way when I walked into the door
And they ripped away my memories and
I can't remember who I was before

Oh Lord, oh Lord no, now they're watching everything I do
And they're watching everything I say
So then leave, then kneel and breathe oh leave me be

And I only wanted to be 16 and free and I
And I wonder