i don't understand lyrics

I retreat by myself at the back of my brain
I cannot see what You're showing me through this pain
I have found that I have found
Nothing for so long

I don't understand, I don't need to
I know You've a plan, You will see through
It is in Your hands, I believe You

I say goodbye, I leave my loved ones far behind
I'm asking why is this is the story of my life
I have found that I have found
Nothing for so long

I don't understand, I don't need to
I know You've a plan, You will see through
It is in Your hands, I believe You

I was only wondering
I've been trying to understand
I know there is more
So much more than I can see

I don't understand, I don't need to
I know You've a plan, You will see through
It is in Your hands, I believe You

I don't understand, I don't need to
I know You've a plan, You will see through
It is in Your hands, I believe You