dead again lyrics

Why do I keep on doing this? It's not for me anymore
I'm doing this more for you than I
And on that lonely road to nowhere
I lost myself to something else

I don't know where I'm going or where I've been
It's so hard to remember all the things I am, am I?
It feels like the end is near, catching up with me
Catch me if you can, cause I'm going down into the ground

How much longer can I keep going on?
I can feel my lost ones coming down
Sooner than later I'll see you all again
I feel my purpose here slipping away
I see the sun, but it's raining

I hope I'm on my way to better things
And if I'm not, it doesn't really matter
Cause I am doing this more for you than I am me
I can no longer pretend, that my life is worth living
I...I would rather die, be dead again

Hold on
Now here it comes, death for one, for a lonely son
Up then down. I'm spinning around
My soul is so confused again
Am I floating towards the sun?
Hold on, am I dead on?

Through a tunnel of black, why?
Why do I feel so sad?

I've been waiting for the end of act 9 to come
The curtain must fall, the end of a song

But the song goes on and on
The light is so very strong
I'm drifting along, I have no will

I'm drifting still
In a room without walls...I feel the chill
No one is here to pick me up
Nothingness...what a mess...oh
Is anybody there?

Is anybody there? I'm talking to you, do you hear me?
If I could only see through the wall of nothingness
The wall of black
They gave me number 9, this is not like last time
Number 9
This time I am really losing my mind

I hear an orchestra...I see an orchestra
I greet an orchestra...I meet an orchestra
I'm in an orchestra...I am an orchestra
I kill this orchestra...I kill me? No
No don't stop, oh please don't stop

Hey say here, what's going on?...hey wait for me

I'm running but I can't keep up
Then I realize my feet are gone
This is such a weird weird song
The orchestra is now a door
One is one and two is four. I can see three more
Seven doors, seven doors
I must choose one before they're gone

But I cannot move, oh they are drifting away now
But I cannot move, oh they are drifting away now
I've got to reach that door, the number 6
I've got to reach that door, the number 6
The number 6-6, the number 6-6-6
The number 6-6-6

The number 6-6-6, that's my door
Wuauuu...look at all the colours
There goes an orchestra, no more doors
Close the window, here they come
I hear another end of this song
But again the song goes on

Dead again. I know cause I've been here before
I'm dead again, if I could only reach that door
The number 6-6-6, the number 6-6-6

I'm beginning to miss you again
Why can't I just get you out of my mind...
I must forget

Dead again. I know cause I've been here before
I'm dead again, if I could only reach that door
Through a purple mist the light is fading
I guess I'll have to stay dead
A little longer this time