blackout lyrics

I just drove under the blinking sign
To where New Jersey meets the New York line
And through the tunnel for the last time
With everything crumbling behind

I stood still until I felt the shakes
Of two bodies that were parting ways
I didn't want to be the one to say
I know this hurts but it's time to break

In two pieces, two fault line's not secure
I'll burn a bridge if needed to get back to her

I feel like I am paralyzed
When I look at the empty space left in my bed
And think about all the things we did

At least I'm feeling more alive
But I still have some old weight that I've got to shed
Before I find happiness

I make mountains out of my worries
And I plant pain instead of sturdy trees
I have got to wash these old sheets
So I can fall asleep

There are times, there are times I reach for the phone
To tell you that there might still be some hope
Holding on, holding on to the slack of rope
But that's the whiskey talking, so

I hope that you can find some peace in life
Can you survive without me 'cause I thought I'd be fine?
Now I'm slurring every single line

I feel like I am paralyzed
When I look at the empty space left in my bed
And think about all the things we did

At least I'm feeling more alive
But I still have some old weight that I've got to shed
I've got to move on before I can find happiness

This isn't fair, nobody taught me how to let go?
Just be here now and you'll be set free from sorrow
But at this time I don't see clearly how will I know
What is the point, what is the meaning? How to let go?

I'm struggling, I blackout so I can dream
But I still see you sneaking through my weary head
I suffer from a drought of medicine to dull self-doubt
I just wanna drown you out with southern poison

If I had a drink for every goddamn time I think
About your pale skin dressed in pink
Then at least I could sleep

If I had a shot for every goddamn time I thought
About your face and what I lost
At least I'd get some sleep

Sleep, sleep
At least I'd get some sleep
Sleep, sleep
Then at least I'd get some sleep