barricades lyrics

Close my eyes and ask myself a question
Why is it I do what I do?
Am I lookin' for some happy definition
Life and love in the corners of the truth?

Or am I just some, curious bystander
Lookin' at the world through a child's eyes
Sunlight always shinin' on my shoulders
While the storm rages on deep inside, deep inside

And it seems so hard to keep it all together
When the walls are fallin' down on every side
Yea, but I'll be damned, if I give up on it easy
I've worked too hard, to get the barricades this high

Is this world's a stage we're meant to play on?
Direction from inside on what to do
I know I should have all of the answers
Deep inside I haven't got a clue, not a clue

And it seems so hard, to keep it all together
When the walls are fallin' down on every side
Yea, but I'll be damned, if I give up on it easy
I've worked too hard, to get the barricades this high, yaa yeah

Told myself that I would be okay
Told myself I'd be all right no doubt
Somewhere low I know that I've been lying
Can't believe it took me thirty years
To figure that shit out

And it seems so hard, to keep it all together
When the walls are fallin' down on every side
Yea, but I'll be damned, if I give up on it easy
I've worked too hard to, get the barricades this high, yeah oh