a love affair with distance lyrics

I've lost my voice
I've said all I have to say
You're thick as porcelain
as clear as cellophane.
i miss the nervous shake
and miss the way it hurt
the way it killed to think that I had You first...
i had u first

So then I force a smile
I take the stage
now my knees are weak try to concentrate
I'm loosing air with every single breathe that I take..
I look into your eyes
see the chemicals, you're the whitest white
you've become a ghost
You're dead to me so why can't I let u go?

The phone is like a knife
I drive into my ear
I had a love affair
with distance and with fear
The bus is like a hearse
driving me from her
she's as black as white
she the perfect curse
She's the perfect curse

Chorus

And if the walls had eyes, we would never lie, you could come down on me.

And if u saved my life, how could I survive, you're the one that made me

this way