it's come to this lyrics

And I found my head uncrowned and all life's sweet nectar flowing down
The cracks and seams wasted on some petty little prayers
And I reached up for despair but I was well below that cherished stage
And all my mangled hopes all song unsung

I fear I've wasted all my sun, I fear I've wasted all my time
Everything is faded smiles are fabricated now
I fear I've wasted all my sun, I fear I've wasted all my time

Held my eyes closed for too long

And I ran out through the streets in hopes that I might find it there
But all my buildings stared back at me tenant less and bare
And I reached up for the sky, but it always seemed so far away
Transcendent thoughts you gave lie atrophied and broken

I fear I've wasted all my sun, I fear I've wasted all my time
Everything is faded smiles are fabricated now
I fear I've wasted all my sun, I fear I've wasted all my time

Held my eyes closed for too long

And I sat when I should have stood, swallowed when I should have spit
Until now I only recognize me in pictures taken long ago
And all the changes simply haunt and never go away
A friend will tell when I hit hell, I may not feel the change

Held my eyes closed for too long
Held my eyes closed for too long

Just before I go don't you offer any sweet advice because where were all
Your shoulders when I needed them so long ago
And now with legs weak and weary from this silly dance
With a suitcase ful of memories, I pack my bags and slowly drift away