in my secret life lyrics

I saw you this morning
You were moving so fast
Can?t seem to loosen my grip
On the past

And I miss you so much
There?s no one in sight
And we?re still making love
In my secret life, in my secret life

I smile when I?m angry
I cheat and I lie
I do what I have to do
To get by

But I know what is wrong
And I know what is right
And I?d die for the truth
In my secret life, in my secret life

Hold on, hold on, my brother
My sister, hold on tight
I finally got my orders
I?ll be marching through the morning
Marching through the night
Moving ?cross the borders of my secret life

I looked through the paper
Makes you wanna cry
Nobody cares if the people
Live or die

And the dealer wants you thinking
That it?s either black or white
Thank God, it?s not that simple
In my secret life

I bite my lip
I buy what I?m told
From the latest hit
To the wisdom of old

But I?m always alone
And my heart is like ice
And it?s crowded and cold
In my secret life, in my secret life
In my secret life, in my secret life