a feast for me lyrics

Well there's a party for me
The last thing I wanted from you
I close the door behind me
And there you are
You seem relaxed and quiet
But under your shirt you sweat
And these balloons around
Make me feel so sad
Well there's a feast for me
But it's a night so pale
Feels like an empty room
Where we could kill with words
You wish you could make believe
That I'm what you want me to be
But these balloons around
Make me feel so sad
I'm in your sweet sweet sweet embrace
And you're a thousand miles away
Your arms a sweet sweet sweet embrace
And you're a thousand miles away
Well there's a party for me
And you know that I didn't ask for it
I just stay in your game
I'm just playing your game
So won't you tell me what to do
I can pretend that you tell the truth
Won't you tell me what to do
I can pretend you tell the truth
I'm in your sweet sweet sweet embrace
And you're a thousand miles away
Your arms a sweet sweet sweet embrace
And you're a thousand miles away
Why why why why
Should I take the blame
Where's my big mistake
Should I feel happy
For what I haven't done
Should I take the blame
Should I feel the pain
Should I feel regret
For what I haven't done
Why why why why
Was this a feast for me
Or just a bad surprise
Should I have expected this
I just don't wanna know
And you've made up the rules
So that you'll win this game
But you can't tell me what to do
Cause I don't believe in you
What's left a sweet sweet sweet embrace
And you're a thousand miles away
Your arms a sweet sweet sweet embrace
And you're a thousand miles away
Why why I never ask you why why